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MAINEGASM
MAINEGASM: read and i don't freakin care. it's my blog, and no one should care. concerned, there's a tagboard there. alright. Quotes: get 500 million friends and in the end they'll be your enemies.
Am I crazy or fallin in love? Or 's it really just another crush
Sunday, December 20, 2009, 9:10 AM
Last night, my crush and I are texting. He told me he that he feels down. Me, desperately trying to make him like me back, asked him what's up. He told me stuff. One time I asked him if he's excited about our school fair, he said he is. I asked him why. And he said, "That will be the day that I'm actually gonna ask this girl out!" Of course, I died. How I wish I was that girl. The following days, we're still texting. Of course, I had to pretend like nothing is up.

Last night was the night, when at one point I fell in love. And the next, I stopped. Last night to make him feel better. I told him how attractive he is. How beautiful he is. But I guess that wouldn't change anything.

As I stare right through my room's white ceiling. That moment, I told myself I won't die without him. I could always stare at him. See his glance for quite some time. That moment, I realized that this guy will never ever hold my hands like the way I see it in my dreams.

And in that moment, I knew I had to go.

I've had enough of these childish stuff. I know I have to grow up.