You ate my heart <3

Hey I'm back

Wednesday, October 28, 2009, 9:39 PM

Hi, Bloggie. Am sorry to keep you waiting, I'm drained for the past few days. I have been eating a lot. You see, it's always the end where I begin. And in the very first place, I don't even know what happened.

I know you know what I mean. You ask me what's my status, it would be "waiting". Yes WTF? You're waiting again Maine? Chyeah! Waiting for another seven years to come. Oh yeah wait, one more year, and we'll all be gone. Fascinating right? I can't wait till college. High school's just too exciting. And I hate the way it makes me all bouncy each time. My high school life doesn't suck, although I have been telling them that it does.

HIGH SCHOOL LIFE ISN'T ABOUT CHEMISTRY, ALGEBRA OR EVEN TRIGONOMETRY. High school is all about the lessons learned each time. High school is all about the sisterhood and brotherhood made. No I'm not talking about fraternities/sororities here. But the one's you can treasure for the rest of your life. HIGH SCHOOL LIFE ISN'T ABOUT BOYS. It's true, when you think you'll have everything, of course no! Although I have to admit, I can stare at them. Melt them. HIGH SCHOOL IS ALL ABOUT YOU. You have to accept yourself, you have to find your strengths and weaknesses. You have to find what your life truly means.

How quick bright things come to confusion - William Shakespeare, A Midnight Summer's Dream.

Where to start now.

Thursday, October 15, 2009, 8:15 PM

"That's the least I can do for at least knowing U and being with U for months. I'm quite sorry for U not telling me, but I completely understand. You're one busy man. Of course you need time. And tell you, tho I'm a year younger my mind's not that of a fifteen yr old. Take care. Happy 16th, and yes I love you"

After this I heard nothing from him. It's as if we do not know each other.

Via ShuffledKisses

Wednesday, October 14, 2009, 9:13 PM

We had nothing to do but to talk about basketball. Always basketball. So I kind of changed the topic; “Alam mo, ang tagal ni prince charming”. He answered with a; “Dadating din yan. Actually, palapit na siya sa akin. Ayun oh!” Then I laughed; “Gago. Yuck! Wag yan! Siguro iba nalang. Kaso may girlfriend na siya.” And yes, I was pertaining to him. He answered me, and it broke my heart; “Kung hindi siya para sa’yo. Wala tayong magagawa. May mga bagay na hindi mo makukuha kahit takam na takam ka na. Kasi kahit makuha mo man siya, kung hindi siya sa’yo, mawawala din siya sa’yo.” I laughed as if I don’t care. Then I was like; “Kunwari, crush kita. Kunwari lang. Ano mangyayari?” He laughed; “Gago! Joke ba yun! Magdalaga ka muna!” Then I slapped him; “Sige, kapag ako nagdalaga, nagbloom. Wag na wag mo akong kakausapin. Wag na wag mo akong liligawan!” He was like; “Sige, pinky promise.” I died. :( He officially broke my heart.

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, 7:37 PM

WHAT HAPPENED? WHAT HAPPENED? WHAT HAPPENED? WHAT HAPPENED? WHAT HAPPENED? WHAT HAPPENED? WHAT HAPPENED/ WHAT HAPPENED. WHAT HAPPENED/ WHAT HAPPENED? WHAT HAPPENED> WHAT HAPPENED? WHAT/ HAPPENED? WHAT HAPPENED? WHAT HAPPENED? WHAT HAPPENED?

Every time my heart is broken, I blog like hell. annoying I know.

, 7:03 PM

Tell me what to do.

OCTOBER 13, 2009 TUESDAY

Tuesday, October 13, 2009, 7:57 PM

Dude, I'm blogging again. I have too many words to say. But I don't know how to tell you. I don't know where to start. But I can sum it all up. It's not that I don't wanna share it. It's just you know too weird for me. School is awesome really. Math is love. And Chemistry is hell! Fine I have to go. Goodnight Blogger. Goodnight readers, if I have? And and yeah! Chuck it all out!

All I need is for one man.

Monday, October 12, 2009, 7:53 PM

I remember this. :) Well? People change roles, right? Take care, my friend. Even though we're not really friends right now.

The new story.

Sunday, October 11, 2009, 12:24 PM

BRO AND XX

xx: PFFT! You know what, brother? I don't wanna be in love again. All 'ob teh guyss are teh samee! [-((( **is listening to This Providence.

Bro: I heard, xy2 likes you. :> :xxxx

xx: Uhh, whateverrr. I don't care anyway and that's too impossible!! X((((

BOY MEETS GIRL @ the caf.

xx: Dang, miss! I need umbrella! [-((( DAYM! It's raining cat and mouseee!

xy2: Hey, missiee. :">

xx: What the H?!! You talking to me? X(

xy2: Who's the only missie here? :DDDD

xx: I'm a bi dude! :>

xy2: I love bi's. <33333

xx: You're hot.

xy2: You too :D

And so that's why I don't wanna fall in love again.

, 12:07 PM

Seriously, the title says it all. I'm tired of this kind of shit, when you wait for text messages yet you know nothing will appear. I hate doing this all over again. I hate the fact that I have fallen in love with someone again. I've learned much from the past, but why can't I even apply it now?

But I love it. I love it when you hold my hands. I love it when you embrace me, as if no one will ever hurt me. I love it when you whisper something in my ear. I love your presence. I love your damn hazel eyes. And every time we say goodbye, and the next thing I knew is I miss you. And then I want to do it again. <333

So true.

Holy Cheeseballs.

Saturday, October 10, 2009, 7:00 PM

Are you available?
Like right now? Yes, definitely.

Are there any stressful situations in your life?

Yes of course. When people expects too much from you. And when you think that everything's control then suddenly things are actually in topsy-turvy mode.

Do you go to the bathroom with the door open or closed?

Closed. Privacy, darling.

Is there someone you don't ever want to be out of your life?

Yup. I don't wanna talk about him/her.

Where did you get your last bruise from?

Dance rehearsals for sure.

What are you currently hearing right now?

Howie Day's voice. I love him.

Anyone crushing on you?

Uhh. I find this question awkward. WTH?!

Has anyone ever given you roses?
Yeah I can name them if you want me too. But no thanks.

What are you looking forward to?

A serious relationship with the someone am currently seeing. Who wouldn't want that, right?

Do you worry your last ex will move on & be happier with another person?
I'm moved now. I just want him to be happy, more than the happiness he felt when we're still together.

Are you really happy or are you just saying that?

I'm really happy for him, y'know. I'm happy that we broke up, at least we won't be pretending anymore.

When did you last hold hands with someone?

Last night. I feel so warm, so relaxed. Like oh whatevs.

If you were kicked out of your current residence, whom would you call?

Ahia Karlo, for sure.

Do you think relationships are hard?

Hard, yeah. But at the same time it's amazing.

What was the last reason that you CRIED?

My ex.

Are you a loud person?

Yeah. Seriously!

When was the last time you slept on the floor?

Typhoon Ondoy day :)

Will you have a valentine this year?

Hopefully.

Did your parents do drugs when they were younger?

No, of course.

Are there framed pictures from your parents wedding in your house?

Nah.

Do you hate the last person you kissed?

Nope. That's why I kissed that person.

Have you accidentally sent a text to the wrong person?

Yup

Something you really want right now?
New shoes.

Is there someone you want back in your life right this moment?
Yeah. I miss her. but not the her who called me B.

Do you need to say anything to someone?
Yeah.

Do you like to make the first move?

Sometimes, but every meeting it's filled with pride.

Can you honestly say that things are running smoothly for you?

Nope.

Do you ever hang out with someone of the opposite sex?

Haha! Yeah!

Who was the last person you cried in front of?

iForgot.

What was the best thing that happened to you this year?
Oh the fact that I've experienced heart aches. If it wasn't because of that I wouldn't be so strong right now.

If you could go back 8 months and change something would you?

Mm. I should have broken up with my ex that time.

How do you feel about your relationship status?

Real. or not?

Any summer plans for 2010?

Europe && College entrance reviews.

In whose arms do you feel safest in?

Them.