You ate my heart <3

I Know Right.

Tuesday, June 30, 2009, 9:52 PM

I am completely fine about our no-talk days. Since am the one to blame for that, dear. Am apparently taking every burden with guilt and tries to swallow everything in. Vague, that's my one liner, oh wait, it's just a word. It's vague. I'm hoping that you'll got the chance to read this. Am trying to function without you, and am simply trying to do so. Since you are able to do that, so do I! You don't have to show yourself, dear. Doing some left turns and all, just not to see your face, because it hurts like hell. Literally, I am still seeing you. What hurts the most is that you stare at me, like you still need something from me, but you are completely ignoring me. How can I move, dear? When you are completely ignoring everything? How will you know the right thing? All I thought I was the best thing that ever happened to you, and now it's the complete opposite. Indecipherable things that can't be read. In case, I am a lady too. But hey, am one extraordinary girl, babe. You haven't seen that yet, cause you never bothered looking at it. The best way out is the way through. You're blocking my way, why?

are you screaming?

Saturday, June 27, 2009, 7:07 PM

I should at least try to be fair to everything. Or at least try not to hurt your heart. All the while I was trying hard not to, but you broke mine. Where were you?

That's random to tell you. I love literature really. And the same thing goes to my music and photography. I miss art too, draw things and get inspired by the objects that surround you. Well sometimes you have to let go, as what I have written a while ago. And oh yeah, script writing contest, I participated earlier. I told you, I was way too inspired for that script writing contest, way too inspired. I didn't tell them that I was Maria there.

Although Jim isn't real literally, and someone didn't die in my real life. But a ghost haunts me now.

Summary: Jim's Maria's best friend, and Jim is someone that Maria only feels related too. When Jim got into this accident, all the way Maria thought that it is the end of the world. Not till the time she met this Man who gave her the power to go on with her life, plus a new best friend.

I love my script. The words uttered were real. And it was never meant to hurt someone. If ever I'll win this contest, might consider reading it. Everything's how God works. How great he is.

As of my irl Jim, I miss you.

Don't Know Where to Start.

Friday, June 26, 2009, 8:33 PM

Since I'm really planning to have many faces on Flickr, I decided to do it yesternight. And even tried posting it on Flickr, but it so annoying that's why I removed it. Then I saw a couple of people combining it to one. But apparently I don't know where to start. Since I am not using Fireworks here. Am using Gimp, you know how hard that is?! Gaaah! I really should install Fireworks here, that way it won't be that difficult for me. SOS!

Saves The Day.

Thursday, June 25, 2009, 5:53 PM

After rereading the previous post, can't help but laugh again. What the hell!

I realized...

, 1:13 PM

na I'm destined to be like this. Ang hirap. Whenever you fight for something right, in the end ikaw ang mali. Ikaw na nga tong nasasaktan, ikaw pa rin ang mali. Ikaw na tong nagmamagandang loob, ikaw pa rin ang mali. Di naman sa nagpipinpoint ako ng tao, pero pare, ang hirap eh. All the while sinasabi mo na ako talaga yung naglie, pero can't you see na ikaw yun? Dude, baka nakakalimutan mo babae ako. May weak side din ako. Kahit ganon ako kaastig, saan mo ba nakuha yung pagkaastig mo? Diba sa mga bagay na nagpaastig sayo? I mean c'mon, you face trials and after each trials you get stronger. If ever namang mabasa mo to, wala na akong pake kung ano isipin mo. Nirerespeto kita, sana ako rin respetuhin mo! Wag mo sanang bastusin pagkatao ko by simply ignoring the stuff I'm saying. Eto na nga eh, okay, aminado na ako mali ko. Pero sana binigyan mo ako ng chance magexplain. Araw araw nalang pinamumukha mo akong tanga. At araw araw naman ako, pinamumukha ko sayo na hindi ako tanga. Pero for once, napansin mo ba yun? Di diba? Kasi iniisip mo lang sarili mo. There are times na gusto kitang kausapin at ayan na chance na nga eh, nu ba gagawin mo? Papaintayin mo ako magdamag, yun pala iniwan mo na ako. As of dun sa U-turn ko, wala nga. Di ko tinuloy. I stayed eh. Diba? Buong loob ko hinarap yung mga bagay na yun. Inintay kita, sabi ko baka in time ayan marealize mo lahat. Kaso nakakabato, pare! Konti nalang okay na, pero ikaw lumalayo ka! As of the girl na sobrang naeewan na ako, Girl, GUSTO NA KITANG SAPAKIN EH. I can't do that, kasi that's bad.

Pare, nakalimutan ko idagdag. Bat mo ako ginaganon? Sana saktan mo nalang ako ng tuluyan kesa naman pinapatay mo akong ng dahan dahan. Alam mo yun? isang bagsakan nalang para tapos na. Ikaw kasi napaka GG mo rin! NakakaGG yan pinaggagawa mo! Oo ako mali, andami ko ring pagkakamali. Pero sana wag mong iparealize saakin na yung pinakamali kong ginawa eh yung minahal kita.

Don't make things worst right? But you are making it worst.

VOTE!

Wednesday, June 24, 2009, 12:29 PM

Happy Dad's Day.

Sunday, June 21, 2009, 6:32 PM

I'm tired, but before I take my rest, I wanna greet all of the dads out there! :) Taboo Island's done, cast party on Saturday. Yihee! Excited.

where i went wrong.

Friday, June 19, 2009, 10:33 PM

Well, everything doesn't sound right these days. So I have to make a move immediately, cause if I didn't, I'll be the kawawa. I was the kawawa na rin in the first place. Aww. Kawawa.

Cause Eyes Don't Lie

Thursday, June 18, 2009, 8:32 PM

I can see it in your eyes, and the truth won't be disguise. Now, tell me. Who's the bad guy now? Me or you?

What Happened Tonight.

Tuesday, June 16, 2009, 9:17 PM

I ran and ran and ran and ask God for an extra mile. I was wet because of the rain. At that moment, I suddenly remembered you and started calling your name. And then God was there, I asked Him where were you. Then God gave me a song, I miss you.

how would life suck if there's no God.

Monday, June 15, 2009, 7:15 PM

Imagine if there's no God. Just imagine, it suck right? I need God now.

That one look.

, 11:57 AM

One thing I hate about school is that you'll be back to something you don't want to do again. A while ago, while we were lining up for the check-up to see if we have Swine Flu or none, I saw him. I was not really that sure if he looked at me, since the girl I'm talking about is there too. Nope, not her, and yes it's her. I couldn't be so sure. To be honest, I don't care anymore. Since I'm finding myself happy again, and strong again. That was me, I said that was me. I just don't get it, why everytime he's around, I'm all weak, like he's the taste of my own medicine. No matter how astig you think I am, but when this guy's around I'm all low. Gaaahd! I don't know, but to be honest, I want to have a word with him about this. I'm just disappointed at how things turned. I thought that I'll be happier with him, since he used to be my best friend. But now, IDK. *Sigh. I'm clueless.

Oh Hi, I'm Kelsey.

Sunday, June 14, 2009, 11:06 AM

I'm rereading my posts over 89th Ave. I'm laughing at it actually. I don't know why, or maybe I'm laughing at how my strength turned into a weakness. Maybe that's it. I'm starting to realize things again. How wonderful life is and how God provides me with enough blessings. I wonder why I kept crying that time. If that happened again, now I know what to do. I won't cry, c'mon! That's pathetic. Now, I'll go to gigs and etc. I didn't know that that would be a remedy. All the time I thought it's a waste of time but it's actually not. You'll earn friends. Hehe! Glad that I met Metro Station. -Sharmaine

And then that's it?

Saturday, June 13, 2009, 11:29 PM

She's dancing at the disco :x here's the continuation of the story

ONLINE TA-DAH!

xy: *I wish we were older

xx: Oh c'mon, you should've watched it.

xy: Tell you what, I'm doing that now.

xx: You sucker! [-((

xy: :)))) why do you hate me so much?!!

xx: That's because you're too munch for me >:P

xy: Munch? ~x(

xx: See, my fingers are slowing down because of you! DAYM! :|

xy: At least, I did not replace you. Loyal to the coreeee. :xxxxx

xx: **We won't be seventeen forever** :)))

xy: LOL WHUT? ;)))

xx: Anyways, no matter how I resist, I keep on coming back. Make me stop now puh-leaseeee. :((((

xy: How can I? :-???

xx: I don't know.

xy: Ain't you happy that I'm talking to you now? :D

xx: Happy at the same time irritated, dunnoo whyyy? :|| **is confused.

xy: Better find that out. <3333

xx: With due respect, why didn't you leave?

xy: I told you it was all in here.

xx: Damn. Pearl's right. ~x((((

xy: Who's right?

xx: Heh! My friend.

xy: A guy? :-??

xx: Hope so :)))))))) **Angle is love. :-"

Selfiee out of boredom.

Tuesday, June 9, 2009, 3:38 PM

Myself, my camera and tripod. I'm not vain mkay? Just that I love exploring things. Thanks for my camera anyways. And some inspirations out there.

Continue...

, 11:53 AM

Today...

xx: **Got online

xy: Oh noes.

xx: Ooh he's online too. But whatever. :>

xy: *Out | Leave a message. >:))))

xx: Funny one, thinks I'll pm him again. [-((( He thinks I'm that low huh. ~x(

A title.

Monday, June 8, 2009, 11:10 PM

I don't know the reason why I kept on posting so many things here. Like I kept on babbling about stuff which won't be here any longer. Like I don't take risk, and stand up for myself. I told my friends what I feel now, and they're getting tired of these. I don't know, maybe. I'm having another downfall at this moment. Like I have to face this all by myself. I'm with my camera now and with this laptop. I don't know the reason why are they here but sure enough, they have a purpose. Like us, we have a purpose but what is it that truly make us tick? Get out, leave and go on. More likely.

Light my way now, I need to go on with a smile on my face and a gentle heart. With great friends and some other stuff. I need a reason to keep believing now, I need a reason to live my life still. I need a reason to fall in love again.

And lastly, I want another moment with you. And tell you how much things I've learned and how I love you. But it's a blur now. I'm losing hope. Goodnight everyone. Godbless. :)

Hey, Monday. Just go away.

, 9:56 PM

My monday's not good. After practice I slept until five. I'm so effin tired. And don't even know how will I keep on without that man. I pm-ed him and told him that if he's gonna end it, he should tell me. That way it'll be fair. For God's sake, now he's with I think another girl. And I feel sorry for myself now. Like no one wants to be with me. What a life I have. And I don't even know how will I start it. For now, God's my last resort. I'm waiting for answers. -Sharmaine.

Vividity.

, 9:07 PM

The picture explains it all I think. Was taken when I got bored. :xxxx. I still love that guy no matter what. But the question is, does he feels the same? Or am I the only one. Dayummmmm

How Stupid. Don't read if you don't have patience.

, 6:01 PM

SOML.

xx: Dude, I got a problem.

xy: WTH. What is it??

xx: It's you. :|

xy: Now whut?

xx: Jeez, chillaxx. :))))

xy: How stupid, be straight nga!

xx: Okay, honestly. I love you. :xxx

xy: WTF?! I know I'm hot but ZOMG!

xx: PFFT. You're hot? Big tummy = hot? Rock on \mmmm/

xy: Well, ain't that the reason? Cause if it is, then I love you too.

xx: Damn boy!

xy: LOL WHUT?!

xx: I don't like you na.

xy: Teka, I thought you love me?

xx: That was then. When you're still sweet and uberr loving. [-((((

xy: Di na ba?

xx: Uhh yeah. You're a wimp kasi, a douchebag. Whatta waste. :((((

xy: Oh, okay. I got this girl naman eh.

xx: Gaahd, I don't wanna have another heartache with the same person again and again and again. OMFG.

xy: I don't get you, babae nga. Napaka melodramatic. sh*t.

xx: Damn you! What would you expect me to do? Swallow you alive? Rawr! ~x(

The next days....

xx: Ahh, still ain't over him.

And now..

xx: Hey xy, care to talk?

xy: Yeah. Sure, don't mind.

xx: Someone just told me to tell you this.

xy: What? That you love me?

xx: Nope. :>

xy: What is it? :-?

xx: That you are a loser. Well, a cool one in a way. But still a loser. And for that, light on. Sheesh! [-( Can't believe what happened between us.

xy: Jeez, stop it.

xx: Fine I'll stop.

xy: Oh wait.

xy: Hey, hey!

xy: Damn it.

xx: I'll stop right? Now shut up :))))))))

xy: Sorry for that really, I'm so tired. Dang :|

xx: :-"

xy: You whistle?

xx: Damn it, like I don't. >:)))))

xy: Dang.

And the story ends here. Don't know what happened to them.

Old Photographs.

Sunday, June 7, 2009, 11:29 PM

First we love then we break. That was then, I was truly inspired for everything. My photography's good. And then it all comes to an end. Jeez, Asked me what happened, I won't even answer. Well better read it on the 89thavenue. (:

Vintage like shots. I love the tones here. Something I have to restore. I have to get that back, the inspiration and all. I'm better than that I believe.

Tomorrow's practice day, and I gotta shine. Overshadow the pain, and go on. <3333

No regrets, the Bible said : Love with all your heart. And sure I did that. And I think, it wasn't really given back equally. Like it's irrational. Well, have to watch AI right? Ha, ha! Time to give back :xx

I miss my spectacular shots. Hope it will remain the same if I tried it again. Everybody deserves a second chance right?

Ha, ha! Peace love God. \mmmmm/

If I were to sum up all the things that you have made....

, 9:40 PM

...I would write it on a piece of paper and will try my best to fit it there, or maybe I can open my heart because everything's etched inside it.

My hands are shaking cold right now, don't know the reason for this. Or maybe I'm just so tired and so uninspired to be here. A sudden change of the atmosphere is terrible. It's damn hard, I'll tell you. I shouldn't have shown how vulnerable I am. And because of that, I decided to take boxing lessons! Yihaa! <33333.

I love you, I really do.

, 12:34 PM

I wanna share my Little Miss Bigotilya pic. Ha, ha! Taken by the photobooth.

Gaahd, I'm so in love with my laptop. Not to mention its features and apps. Incredible work, really. I have my own fotoloco installed. Ha, ha! By the way, this is my second post. I have my tagboard posted now so feel free to shout at me. I mean it's the quiet scream right? I haven't edited my about me section, really. So nothing new about my selfie.

Later I'm gonna be out, hoping to capture great things again well, hopefully. I'm lovin the weather, and hating my hair now. roflmao. <333

Mayfield

, 11:56 AM

I'll be moving here. <3333

Etch to my heart, only people I knew personally can view this blog. I haven't posted any chatbox yet, so comments aren't really taken too. For now, the site is kinda under construction. I decided to take advantage of my twitter account. Ha, ha! Blogging can't possibly be taken out of my hands, I love doing it. Sharing my thoughts I mean feelings. But one mistake I made the last time, is that I opened it to the public. And that made that someone abused in a way cause I didn't respect his privacy. And now, to start all over I made this blog. :) As I've said only people I knew personally can read this blog. As I've said "personally". Makapal na mukha nagclaim.

Don't etch my heart or else I'll etch yours. :xxxx.